i auditioned for beauty and the beast this morning. i guess there's really no getting used to all this auditioning. well, i've only done it twice and so far... i get freakin' nervous everytime. to the point that i shake. like literally tremble. what's wrong with me? and because of that, allan said i went flat while singing circle of life. how sad. if i didn't really do well today, how can i be sure i'll do well tomorrow? i'm so nervous. i really WANT it.

after singing, all i got were two affirmations that "you have a great voice". please take me, haha.


it's official. i'm fat. and getting fatter by the day.

CONTROL AND EXERCISE! after the auditions, i tell myself. ok, that's tomorrow.