i auditioned for beauty and the beast this morning. i guess there's really no getting used to all this auditioning. well, i've only done it twice and so far... i get freakin' nervous everytime. to the point that i shake. like literally tremble. what's wrong with me? and because of that, allan said i went flat while singing circle of life. how sad. if i didn't really do well today, how can i be sure i'll do well tomorrow? i'm so nervous. i really WANT it.

after singing, all i got were two affirmations that "you have a great voice". please take me, haha.


it's official. i'm fat. and getting fatter by the day.

CONTROL AND EXERCISE! after the auditions, i tell myself. ok, that's tomorrow.

it's been a long time coming...

i'm not partial to this blog because i can't make it look like me. i know nothing about html, save for the basic insertions of pictures. count on me to tinker with this blog when i'm supposed to be writing the first analysis of my thesis. bah, i'm the ultimate procrastinator -- but doesn't everyone claim to be the ultimate? so i picked another template and clicked on the first pink one that i saw on the list. i made the banner on top just a couple of minutes ago, not specifically for this blog but hey, it fell into place. besides, it was the only thing i could change because it was the only thing i knew how to change.


this was my last random question:
Your people want to make a statue in your honor. What will it be made out of and what victory will it commemorate?
i said:
it will stand 5 feet and 4 inches, made of sarcasm and desires, commemorating the victory over rich and mindless people.

maaan, i only wrote that last year. that was last year's self-image. i want to be more positive this year. i might get better skin by being positive, and i'm willing to try anything.

so i wanted to link some music, but the settings tell me my url is longer that the 68-character limit, or whatever. it's not like it was my choice to make a long name -- it just so happens that free audio hosts assign such long names.

aside from having to write my thesis analysis, i want to make a short children's story for tomorrow's deadline, too. keilah told me about this contest that adarna's judging. i was pretty excited in the beginning, and then a lot of shiz started coming at me and i totally forgot about it. and here i am: toying with the idea of writing a short story instead of my analysis. what exactly are your priorities, kaye?? i don't understand you.

oh no, there i was again, talking about myself in the third person. i'm going to blame it on delusion from my fever. i think God's telling me to get back to work, dammit. thank you for constant reminders, Lord.